Sorrow
woke up today with a slight fever and such a bad flu,
and also didn't realize i have a swollen left eyebag, its like
those as though i've been punch on the eye.
it was boring staying home,
i could only remember i fall asleep after
taking the fever medicine and wake up feeling abit better.
But due to the so called 'pimple ' at the back of my head,
my head felt so heavy and keep hurting till now.
'pimple' start to grow at the back of my head only when
i used my brain abit too much. Too much of thinking and stress will lead to this.
haiz.
i feel i lost my motivation again.
lost my touch on photography,
designin and perspective.
haiz.
feel like talkin' to someone,
but i don't find theres any use for it at all.
feel like its the end of my life every single night.
feel as though i lost my whole life.
feel as though i lost the most valuable thing in me.
feel as though theres nothing much to see in the future.
holdin on, always, but to what, i don't even know.
hangin on, to what, i don't know.
all i can say i will fall hard and not able to get up nomore.
something is bothering me, alot.
but i can't put it in words anymore.
smile and laughters are mundane to me.
riding and gatherins are mono to me.
photographs and designs are unleveled curves now.
sigh.
feel like its the end of my life every single night.
feel as though i lost my whole life.
feel as though i lost the most valuable thing in me.
feel as though theres nothing much to see in the future.
holdin on, always, but to what, i don't even know.
hangin on, to what, i don't know.
all i can say i will fall hard and not able to get up nomore.
something is bothering me, alot.
but i can't put it in words anymore.
smile and laughters are mundane to me.
riding and gatherins are mono to me.
photographs and designs are unleveled curves now.
sigh.
i should just keep quiet and be myself.