why is that

i wish i was superman with a wing on my back.

I don't know what is the feeling that is in me now,

come to think of it i don't think that it is a feeling but more

of a thought that i kept thinking.

Alot of things change in me but maybe myself

can't seem to see what had change terribly in the head, body

and inner self that contains every emotion in myself.

I feel nervous, at the very edge of breaking down with alot

of stuffs in my head and now i got another opportunity to excel,

but with alot of thoughts still kept in my head and i am unsure

what i want or what to expect in the future that holds alot.

I wish to get resuscitate from the feeling of being suffocate,
Get revive by the person i love to pull me up through,

the night and be there when there is not even a single light,
for me to see, be the legs to my table and the keys to my gate.

I want to be the person opening the door,
having you rush, to lure me through the heart,
feel your heartbeat on every beat being with me,
for me to love you in every way i could before

i finally admit defeat.

i believe i have the very reason to act,
for the way i am now, for not able to see
the bird's eye view in perspectives that varies.

I won't get any other chance these far,
seeing you leaving through the window,
makes me feel i lost the only wings i had,
i wish i am superman with wings to fly,
to you the only one i used to had.

sigh.